Yours for the Asking

February 23rd, 2011

One day I was heading to the gas station.

There are several in a row, because we live near an interstate, and I always go the the third.  Once in a great while, I go to the fifth.

So, I was heading to the gas station this day, last year, and as I passed the first and second station, I noted that their gas was $2.59 per gallon.  I said to myself, “I’d prefer to pay $2.53,” and I immediately saw the $2.53 sign in my mind, just as an illustration to go with the thought.

I drove the quarter mile to the third station and would you believe that gas THERE was $2.53 per gallon.  I was completely stunned because I hadn’t been trying to do that.  It was just a passing thought.  A request to pay less disguised in the stating of a preference.

Whenever I head to the gas station from home, this incident almost ALWAYS crosses my mind.  It was so amazing.  I don’t know if I created it or if I saw it psychically before I got there, but either way it was very cool and it makes me high every time I revisit the memory.

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I’m going to preface this story by saying;
My boys were off school Monday and Michael went to his friends house.  I drove him there and he commented on how low my gas gauge was.  I’d intended to get gas on my way to pick him up, but he ended up calling early due to a little disruption there, so I went to get him unexpectedly, and forgot about the gas.  Upon returning home, my gauge was so low, I was just hoping I’d make it to the gas station when I left again.

Yesterday, I left.  I got in my van and remembered that I desperately needed gas.  As I pulled down the driveway, I thought, “I need to make it to the gas station.  Please help me remain in peace.” (That last part is from the book I’m reading! Review tomorrow!)

I didn’t even acknowledge the price at station one and two.  Station three said $3.22, and my eyes boggled!  It had been only $3.05 the day before!  I decided at that split second to drive a mile down the road to station five.  They’re usually the same or a cent or two less.

I pulled in to see a guy outside with a long stick, changing the price on the huge sign out front.  I didn’t know how much it was, but it said $3.1- so far, so I knew it was at least in the teens.

The pumps were full, but as I drove up, one right in front of me opened up as though magickally, so I parked next to my pump and got out.  I reached up to swipe my credit card and looked right at the price per gallon, digital read on the pump.

$3.07

I looked over at the guy at the sign with the long stick.  He’d completed this side of the sign and moved on to the other side.  The sign now read, $3.19.

“Holy crap!” I thought, and hurriedly swiped my card to get the transaction going so the pump would be turned on.  As I stood there waiting for authorization, the sign guy walked back across the parking lot and into the store.

I watched the pump in anticipation, bouncing on the balls of my feet.

Authorized! Remove nozzle, select grade, begin pumping.

I jumped up in the air and did a jiggy dance right there next to my van.  I decided at that moment to fill my tank instead of just the $10 I’d intended to put in it.

I no sooner got the nozzle in my van and the gas flowing through it when a voice came over the intercom to tell the woman right next to me that the pumps were being reset and she’d have to wait a moment.

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Here’s what I learned.

Whenever I remember that awesome day I saved six cents at the pump and predicted the exact price, it amps up my vibe and creates wonderful energy.  I always feel good and extra-specially glowy when I daydream about past manifestations and evidence of my connection to God.

I often accompany my thoughts of that day with, “That was so awesome.  I wish that would happen again,” but it was so fantastic, I couldn’t really imagine it happening again.  And besides, that’s not only a fantastical request, it’s awfully specific.

I think what happened this time is…

I actually expressed a request.  I needed to get to a gas station, and I was worried I wouldn’t make it.  I said, “I need to get to a gas station.  Please help me stay in peace.”

All wrapped up in that was a request to reach my destination, in perfect order, in divine timing, while helping me to remain in perfect peace with all of it.  I think it was the peace part that did it, because I didn’t feel peace when I saw the $3.22.

But after the request in my driveway, I entertained my past manifestation as usual, which made me smile, as usual.

So, I’m thinking it was the request followed by the good vibes.  And I let it go.  I mean, I REALLY let it go.  Once I pulled out of my driveway, all thoughts of worry were gone.  It’s funny though.  I didn’t release my worry consciously.  As a matter of fact, as I’m sitting here replaying it all in my mind as I write it down, I just realized that I didn’t give another thought to running out of gas.

It’s like my mind was in peace the moment I asked for it to be… Wow, that’s kinda… wow.  And it happened so seamlessly that I didn’t even consciously realize it had happened.

I guess I learned some more while writing what I learned before.

How’s that for poetic rumination.

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Full Moon Mishap Turned Manifestation

February 18th, 2011

Last night, or more specifically at 3:36am EST this morning, was the Full Moon in Leo, which only lasted for an hour until 4:39am when the moon went into Virgo.

I, weirdo that I am, wanted to be awake between 3 and 3:30 so I would be awake for that small window.

This, I knew, wouldn’t be a problem.  My internal clock is pretty darned reliable.  At that moment, I looked at the clock (and it’s still mid afternoon at this point) and took note of the time and set an intention in my mind to be awake for the Full Moon in Leo at 3:36am.

As the evening wore on, I was actually oddly excited about being awake and meditatively receptive when the Moon underwent Her changes.

Then the thought struck me;

My internal CLOCK is in good running condition.  It wakes me up every morning.  I fail to rise often, however, simply because being drowsy and warm in my bed is far more inviting.  I hope I’m able to be awake enough that I don’t talk myself out of this at 3:30.  I hope I don’t just note the time and roll over going directly back to sleep, never having remembered WANTING to awaken.

These worries stalked the corners of my mind for the rest of the night.

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Back in the beginning of January, we installed a wood stove in the sun room.  I lovingly refer to my bedroom as “The East Wing” because basically the whole east end of the house is the master’s suite.  The sun room has a private entrance from my room.

Since we’ve begun keeping a small amount of wood stacked neatly in the sun room, we’ve noticed there are more bugs in the house.  Ladybugs, “stink bugs”, and ants mostly.  I think they hitch a ride in, inside the wood, and wake up when they warm up.

We’ve decided to start keeping wood outside and very close by instead of INSIDE.

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3:06 am* Exactly 30 minutes before “show time” last night, also known as this morning.

The covers fly from my body.  The bed shakes, and quivers.  A bright light bursts through the darkness, blinding me save for the array of blue and green orbs of shock that float behind my eyelids.

“What the hell are you DOING?!” I ask, not hiding my irritation at the rude awakening.

“There’s a bug of some sort in the DAMN BED!” Mike shrieks! (yeah, shrieks. He’s kind of a bitch about bugs of any kind in his bed where he’s naked)

So, all the blankets came off, and he shook them all out, and looked the bed over.  Then he scowled at me in not a very nice way when I pointed out that the bug he was looking for most likely had wings, and would probably not be found on the floor where he was currently on his hands and knees, looking.

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I was not only awakened in the correct time frame, but I was given inspiration to get out of, and away from my bed.  I was up for the entire hour in Leo, and then some.  It was perfectly executed.

Dear Universe,

Real subtle.  Kind of amusing.  Thanks for always responding to me.

I Love You Too~
El

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2011

January 1st, 2011

I felt like there should be one more post in 2010, so here I am!! (… is what I was thinking last night as I wrote this post before I fell asleep and forgot to send it…)

What a fantastic year it’s been.  I’ve made new friends, and moved on from old ones (or have TRIED to at least, if the last one would stop being a voyeur to my life and let me be…).  I’ve changed my thinking a lot and taken on some new perspectives.

I’ve become more organized and made great strides in being a more involved and active wife and mother.

Life has been good!  As if it could be anything but.

I’ve decided that my main focus in 2011 will be “Simplify.”

We have too much.  An abundance to be sure.  It’s time to clear out and cut back and simplify, simplify, simplify.

My first acts of simplification have been to go through a ton of clothes setting aside a few BAGS to be given away, and to put into my home, a wood burning stove.  We’re not heating our entire house this way, but it will reduce energy consumption and HAS to be greener than electric, gas, or fuel oil heat.

I’ve made a list for myself with each item starting with, “I want,” and it currently sports 37 items.  Not items like things, but items like, points of focus.  Energy and habits and things I want to create for myself in the coming year.  Areas of growth.  Who I will be in the new year.

I was going to post it here, but as I’ve really gotten into writing it, I’ve been really honest with myself and in turn, decided that this list is just far too personal to share with cyberland.

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I will share one of the big ones with you though, and that is to be less wasteful.  I’m bad for fixing dinner and not putting away all the ingredients I got out.  OR fixing dinner and forgetting to put all the leftovers in the fridge.  Or making a large amount of food intending specifically to either eat it for another meal, or morph it into something else, but never doing it.

I’ve been, more often than not, making menu plans and mostly following them in an effort to simplify my life since taking on home-cooked lunches for my family, and that has helped us to waste less food.  I still see too much food being thrown away, so I intend to get a grip on that, right now.

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I hope you have your own list for 2011.  Even if there’s only one or two things on it, give yourself some goals and direction in 2011.  It makes one feel so much more focused and accomplished when you know what you’re working towards.

Today, I’m working toward normalcy.  Traditionally, New Years Day is the day we take down all our holiday decorations and pack them away again until next year.  As much as I love having an actual, live tree in my living room, I love the serenity of my clean, normal home.

And cleaning up decorations means the major holidays are OVER!!  Yay!!!

Happy New Year!! ~

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