I went to my favorite local metaphysical shop the other day and bought some crystals to support my intention this lunar cycle.
I set an intention to make conscious contact with my spirit guides, or more specifically, Jesus… if He really is one of my spirit guides. I know I got a synchronous confirmation of that, but the skeptic in the back of my mind is still… well… skeptical.
So, anyway, I went and bought these crystal bracelets. I sat down before I left and flipped through my Chrystal Bible briefly to make note of “Spirit Guide” stones. I marked three.
Of the three I marked, only one was possible and available.
Lapis Lazuli (royal stone, spirit guide contact, stimulates enlightenment, releases stress & brings deep peace, energetic/psychic protection) in a 13 stone bracelet. I took it. It seemed like a sign, being the only one available to me.
I also felt completely drawn to a hematite (grounding and cleansing; especially blood and blood related organs) bracelet of 15 stones.
Then the girl behind the counter mentioned clear quartz (healing, cleansing, amplifies and stores energy) and as soon as she said it, I knew I was there for that also. The one I left with has 16 stones.
I don’t know why I counted the stones, but it seemed somehow significant. It also seems significant that Lapis is “royal”… like, a king… and brings deep peace… Hematite makes direct reference to cleansing the blood… and the quartz amplifies and increases. I didn’t know what any of the stones were until I came back home and looked them up. I only new Lapis pertained to spirit guides because the index told me so. Funny coincidence.
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I’ve been going to sleep every night listening to a “Spirit Guide” binural beat for the past three nights. I bought it from The Unexplainable Store. It’s 30 minutes long and pleasant to listen to. There’s a light, airy music with nature sounds in the background. Under it all, if I focus on it, I can hear the hum of the beat.
It’s the only track on my MP3 player so when it finishes, it just starts over again. I usually wake up about an hour or so later, and turn it off and set it on the floor next to my bed.
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I (re)started a yoga routine on Saturday. I’ve put on twenty pounds over the past several months, and I figured yoga would be a great way to get in a little exercise to motive and start the day on a high note. Afterward, I’ve been lighting a candle and meditating. Then I hold and say blessings over my crystals before wishing us all a lovely day and blowing out the candle (it’s like it’s my birthday every day lol).
My yoga routine is very basic to get limbered up for the morning and make some nice energy. I’m thinking about making my own yoga video ;) The whole reason I started doing this routine is because I couldn’t find a basic, short, sweet, morning yoga routine that I REALLY liked. I looked all over the net and youtube.
I came up with some that were pretty good, but I find that most videos don’t give you enough time to breeeeath in your poses. I like the fluid breathing/moving motions, but when I drop into a nice, opening, stretching pose, I like to pause and really feel the tension release, and take a moment to breath oxygen and chi down into my muscles.
So anyway, I recorded my routine this morning, just for the heck of it. It came out just under ten minutes. I think in the near future, I’ll be re-recording it and posting it! I’m sort of excited about it too : )
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I mentioned the yoga because I find that doing a little yoga is not only meditative in itself, but it also wakes up my chi and relaxes my muscles. This is a perfect way to lead into meditating.
I’ve never been a regular meditator, but I am feeling especially drawn to it since this past New Moon’s intention. I started Saturday morning by going through my short yoga routine, and then sitting down in the middle of my mat to meditate.
I lit a candle to create an official, energetic space, and then I sat gazing at the flame for a moment taking a few deep breaths and consciously relaxing. As I was quieting my mind, I heard Deepak Chopra telling me to visualize that which I desire to manifest, and then take it into the nothingness and release it.
How do I visualize spirit guide contact? Just SEE Jesus?
But before I could contemplate it anymore, I immediately could see him sitting cross legged, directly in front of me, as though we were meditating together and facing each other while doing it. I didn’t SEE Jesus, my eyes were closed. Yet, it wasn’t an imagining or a visualization either really. I couldn’t see him clearly, like a picture. He was more like a soft, white-ish, humming glow with vague features.
I just knew Him.
I felt my whole body flush warm, and I felt relaxed and happy and loved. Then I let go of the image and focused into my breath and let everything go silent and still.
I repeated this morning routine on Sunday morning with the same results.
On Monday I traded yoga for working out at Curves, but before I left, I sat down and lit my candle and connected to that image of Big J sitting cross legged in front of me. I took the image into the silence and released it going to my breath once again.
After I left Curves, I stopped at Walmart. As I was walking up the aisle just minutes after I walked in, I realized that I could see Big J walking along just over my right shoulder. Again, I didn’t SEE him, I just saw him in my mind’s eye and knew the energy. I just recognized him.
But I didn’t call him. I mean, I didn’t consciously visualize him there. I was alerted to his presence when I felt him there. That’s never happened before.
Well, that’s not entirely true either. I’ve been feeling a presence of some sort just over my right shoulder for about a month now. Ash and I were just talking about it a week or so ago. It was just a mild feeling though. I’d not SEEN, with my mind’s eye OR the ones in my face, anything near me.
I’m glad it happened at Walmart though. Spending time home alone all day, if I suddenly saw someone next to me without any pre-appearance, it’d probably startle the life out of me.
This morning I lit my candle and gazed into the flame to relax and release and I could already feel him near. When I closed my eyes, he was there. I only sit and meditate for maybe, seven or eight minutes every morning. I may extend that in the future, but I’m trying to form a routine, and that doesn’t happen by going overboard. I spend probably two of those minutes holding his image.
This whole experience makes me wonder if we actually choose our spirit guides. Are they assigned to us, or can they be beckoned to us. Or do they just take the form we are most likely to relate to?
