~ The Nineteen Things I Love About Spring Countdown!! ~
This is it!! The final day of winter!! We made it!! Hallelujah!
I think a quick recap is in order.
#19~ The return of the small, furry critters.
#18~ Hearing the ground speak.
#17~ My mailbox stops losing it’s head!!
#16~ BUDS ON LILAC BUSHES!!!
#15~ Thunder Storms.
#14~ Dry Roads.
#13~ The sunshine gets warm again!
#12~ Dog Hair Bird Nests!
#11~ Nesting Birds.
#10~ MORE LIGHT!!
#9~ Schizophrenic Weather.
#8~ Daylight Savings Time!
#7~ Easter aka Eostre.
#6~ The sounds!
#5~ Planning the Garden!
#4~ The Buzzers return!
#3~ Spring Cleaning.
#2~ The Placement of the Sunrise.
And now, without further ado, I give you the #1 thing I love about Spring!!
#1~ GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN!!!
I absolutely ADORE that nearly unnatural shade of super, bright green that seems to overtake the landscape as Spring comes into full swing. I am part Irish and I’ve always wondered what Ireland would look like in the throws of a passionate Spring. Already being world renowned for it’s abundance of green, I bet there aren’t even words for the Springtime saturation.
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A note on suicide~
I don’t even really know what to say. I didn’t plan this part of my post.
I have been having suicide thrust into my face repeatedly the past couple days and just as I was about to close this post, I realized rather suddenly that I should say something about it here.
I’ve had suicide, brought up to me four times in two days by completely unrelated, unconnected people. And you all know I’m one to go where the Spirit moves me, so here I am.
There is nothing so bad as that. There’s just not. I’m not saying it doesn’t suck sometimes, or that it’s not bad, or that you’re not hurting. But if you’re willing to die and leave it all behind forevermore, then why aren’t you willing to LEAVE physically?
When I really wanted to change my life, I did. And it wasn’t my thoughts or my habits or anything as self-helpy as that. I just got the hell away from all the people that I felt were dragging me down. The ones that took and took and took and took from me.
The energy vampires.
I mean, if you die, you lose all the “bad” but you lose all the good too. And the only reason the good doesn’t mean all that much anymore is because you can’t see the good when the bad is all stacked up in your face, blocking your view.
But you can walk away! You can throw your hands up in the air and scream, “FUCK YOU ALL, I’M FINISHED WITH THIS BULLSHIT!!!”
You HAVE that power.
Pack you shit and leave! Can’t leave your husband? Well, if you kill yourself, you’ll not only leave him, but you’ll leave him blaming himself. At least if you express a need to be free and just GO, he can be angry and move on instead of living out his own life always wondering why he didn’t see the signs of your misery.
And that goes for your children, friends, co-workers, any and all family, immediate and extended.
There is so much good in this world. So much love and light to be had and shared. But you can’t change your life if you keep your bicycle going around the same block. You gotta take a road trip and lose your baggage.
If it’s all holding you back enough to want to die, then you’re dragging around WAY more that necessary.
If you are harboring violent thoughts toward yourself, please seek help. Tell someone. Tell people you love, because they love you too.























