I’ve been going through some pretty intense self discovery lately. It seems as though it’s been building for about a month now. Looking back I can see a surprising number of thoughts and conversations and examples of my base issue, as though the Universe was bringing it up repeatedly to prepare me for what’s coming now.
I visited a metaphysical store a month ago and was approached out of the blue by a man. He said he was a healer and could see energy and that he’d felt me enter the building from the back room. Then he proceeded to tell me all about myself.
He told me I am an “Indigo Child” and that I am a healer. He also told me that God was telling him to share all his knowledge with me so should I ever have any questions about anything, I should come back to the shop and just ask.
The reason I went to the shop in the first place was to buy a moonstone. I’d been having some second chakra issues and my favorite crystal book said a moonstone was in order for balance. This man gave me an entire 15 stone bracelet of moonstone saying it would help my symptoms.
Then he gave me a 15 stone bracelet of purple amethyst and told me that the reason I was having the symptoms was because I was building up into a release of some pretty heavy duty buried issues. The purple amethyst will help you release the issues and move forward.
Since then it seems like I’ve been being nudged gently in the direction of resolution.
It finally came last Saturday when I spent nearly the first 6 hours of my day in tears.
Since then, I feel as if a weight has been lifted from me. I feel down right euphoric at times. And now, I seem to have a new subject of awareness. Movement.
Suddenly every time I turn around, everything is all about energy and movement and exercise and cell growth. I haven’t been getting regular exercise since summer started and the kids have been home so Wednesday morning I decided, rather abruptly, to go for a run with the Abby Dog. I used to run pretty regularly but haven’t in quite some time. I’m always amazed at how easy it is to go back.
I couldn’t find my headphones so I couldn’t listen to my MP3 player while I was out. No big deal. And we ran.
I sort of zone out when I run. The music provides a hypnotic beat, but when I run without music, the hypnotic beat is provided by my shoes pounding the pavement as I move down the road.
Around the mile one mark I was deep in nowhere, listening to my feet drive me across the asphalt and it suddenly struck me that some of the biggest epiphanies I’ve had and some of the most profound guidance I’ve received was as I was exercising. “Maybe there’s something to that,” I thought.
I finished my run with my mind wandering back to that idea a couple times. Maybe that’s why I get stuck sometimes. I stop exercising. Hmm…
I went in the house and took a shower. After I dried off I went to my room to dress. I walked in and flipped on the TV to see if I could catch a weather forecast. The 700 Club was on. Not something I would normally watch being that it’s a Christian program, but as the TV screen lit up, I immediately heard them talking about cell growth and energy and movement, so I paused to watch.
The man on there was saying that cells don’t age. They either grow or die. When they grow, you thrive. When they die, YOU age. Then he said that exercise is key in cell growth because when you exercise, cells automatically kick into gear and grow and that alone can keep you looking and feeling very young well into “old age”.
Then he said the words that rawked my world. He said:
“Life requires movement to grow. If there is no movement of energy, then creation cannot manifest itself.”
And I thought… WOW! That is SO true! I’ve heard before that if you have a money jar or something for saving, you should pull all the money out of it periodically and move it around. Maybe swap out a few bills. Don’t allow it to be stagnant. If it’s not moving, it’s not growing.
So I decided at that moment that I am going to start running again.
Today is the third day in a row that I’ve run. I also figure that, if creation wants movement to manifest growth, then I’m going to give creation something to grow toward during my morning movement.
I’m going to start using my morning run as time to think about my current intentions. I think I’ll pick maybe two different ones. One for the run out and one for the run back. I feel quite charged with the idea of putting my intentions into LITERAL motion. I enjoy rhythmic chanting. I’ll often say “Thank You” as I walk with one syllable per step. I think I’ll try affirmations. Quick and short affirmations that I can chant in my mind to the rhythm of my movement.
Then I’ll use my shower after for gratitude meditations as usual.
I’ve been manifesting some very surprising things with surprising speed since Saturday. Seems I REALLY freed up some blockages. With things manifesting for me so easily, it seems logical to put a little more discipline into my intentions and focus to manifest in my desired directions.
