Talking to God
June 27th, 2009
I love the week after the new moon. We live out in the country and when there’s little or no moon, all you can see is stars. I find starry skies to be quite spectacular and adore the humbled feeling I get, gazing up into the massive expanse of the (seemingly) unexplored Universe.
Thursday night at about midnight I found myself sitting out on my front porch with Abby. We were watching the lightning bugs dance down by the road in the fog that was creeping up the front acre from the field across the street. I sat there in the warm, heavy night air in awe of the natural beauty of the night in its total perfection.
I started thinking about Charlie being gone and how much I love and will miss him. That lead into thoughts of Michael Jackson, Ferrah Fawcett and Ed McMahon’s recent deaths. I sat there thinking about how short life is. Then I heard myself say in my head, “Well, I’m only 30″… ONLY 30. I mean, not to say I’m old or not… but it got me thinking about how you never age. I mean inside… you… the divine spark of God that is YOU. The “I Am”. You never age. You feel the same as when you were a child.
Then my mind wandered into awe at how the body ages but inside, I stay the same. I grow and learn and change… and yet somehow I stay the same. I become and yet I remain.
I felt so CHARGED by these thoughts. I sat there in the thick darkness with my dog surrounded by a blanket of stars and a field of lightening bugs and in a most joyous fashion began a litany of the amazing things in my life I’m so grateful for and that I appreciate with every fabric of my being. My body felt like it was buzzing with the sheer pleasure I was getting from just sitting in gratitude for life.
Suddenly a bird that was nested in the small copse of pine trees about twenty feet to my left started to SING! LOUDLY! It cut the silence with laser precision and was unquestionably the immediate center of all attention. Abby launched to her feet, startled by the outburst. I felt goose bumps break out across my entire body.
It twittered about in the deep shadows for about 10 seconds (which in the dead of night seems ENDLESS!) and then abruptly ceased. The silence rang loudly in my ears and I felt God reaching out to me from the void.
Nature never ceases to amaze me. God never ceases to amaze me.
I find that whenever I simply sit in gratitude I always find the connection I’m seeking. It sure doesn’t always happen in such a spectacular fashion but it happens none the less.
I hope you’re finding the connection you’re seeking :)
